I REGRET

I never forgot the day my mother died. There has not been one day that has gone by that i don’t regret it.

The fact i didn't get the chance to say i love her and for her to say it back. There was now need for god to take her, I don't understand! Her life didn't deserve to be taken. On her last breath my whole life with my mother flashed before my eyes. The sadness, happiness and the laughter.

Her life was perfect. She was healthy and well until that day, the day she got sick. At first i thought it was the basic flue our cold but then she became more sick and it had felt like someone had punched a hole in my heart and i never realized how much worse it could get. She got paler and a lot thinner every time i went to see her in the hospital. Every time I visited her I asked her how she was, she replied... "I am fine, you don't need to worry, and I will always be with you."

By the tone it my mother’s voice I could tell she was lying. A couple of weeks went by and she wasn’t getting any better. After a while I was no longer to visit her in the hospital. I asked myself why couldn’t I go and see her, I asked other people why and I asked my father why. While he was crying a river of tears he finally told me something that changed my life forever.

My mother was dying and there was nothing I could go to stop it.

In the hospital my mother was lying on her death bed struggling to breath. The pain she must have been in. As my mother held me tight she told me “everything is going to be okay.” She squeezed my hand for the very last time and her eyes slowly closed over.

Now you can see how much I regret it. I loved my mother so much, still do and always will. She is in my heart and in my dreams and I can’t wait to see her again.